As a child, I loved to dance, but as a teenager I lost my way.
Leaving home at 16, I was thrust into a grown up, stressful world, which I handled by hitting the rave scene, using recreational drugs and drinking.
I realised something had to change, so I threw myself into Yoga. I found solace in the movement. I thought the harder I pushed myself and the more it hurt, the better it would be for me.
I began to train and study Yoga seriously, first with Godfrey Devereux – who I liken to the punk father of Yoga – and then with teachers in both the UK and India.
I started to teach Yoga in the evenings after my demanding day job as Project Manager in a large company.
I did what I thought was yogic – strict food regimes, three hours of Yoga practice a day, pushing myself physically to get an endorphin hit and to fit into a size 8 dress.
But all of this took its toll. It led to chronic illness, stomach health problems and deep-rooted womb issues.
I knew I had to make drastic changes to my work-life balance and I embarked on Yoga self-practice at home that was gentle, nurturing and mostly about rest and relaxation. I learned how to release muscle tension, rather than pushing my muscles harder. I moved away from the edge, softened, surrendered and let go.
My Yoga journey continued when I wanted to have a child. Whilst I didn’t have to wait long, it wasn’t as straightforward as I thought it would be, so I threw out the thermometer and charts that were stressing me out and began to really get in touch with my own body. I attended Womb Yoga workshops and researched how Yoga could affect fertility and my monthly cycle. I wanted to do all I could to improve my chances of conception – and it worked!
When my son was born, I moved to a gentler, more somatic Yoga approach to support me through the tiredness of motherhood.
I learned about Restorative Yoga from world-renowned teacher Judith Hanson Lasater, while Yoga goddess Angela Farmer completely altered my Yoga thinking. I now view Yoga as being more about the pause between activity rather than the shapes on the mat. This perspective has allowed me to explore myself more deeply, enabling me to connect to the hard places and trauma in my body so that I can sit gently with them until they have softened.
‘Whatever is fluid, soft and yielding will overcome whatever is rigid and hard. What is soft is strong.”
Most recently I’ve undertaken Advanced Restorative Yoga training with Judith Hanson Lasater and learned new Somatic Movement practices from Fabiano Cularo and Liz Koch, which I now integrate into my teaching. I have never felt so open and vulnerable, yet so embodied, centred and authentic as I do now. I’m more balanced in work and life than I have ever been.
As a result of my own journey, I now help women of all ages and abilities connect with themselves by finding spaciousness and softness within, while linking to their own menstrual cycle, seasonal changes and nature’s biorhythms. The mind body connection that my deep, restorative practice offers gives women the chance to transcend the physical and see their bodies as an extension of themselves, not something separate.
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